"It's never too late to be who you might have been" ~ T.S. Eliot
I've been thinking about regret and missed opportunities. How did I end up here? In the hopes of having a more optimistic outlook, I thought about how many of my dreams I've already accomplished, or at least to an extent that fulfills my current needs. Here's a little list of who I might have been:
*A Country Girl
When I was five years old, living in Rochester, N.Y., I dreamed about picking flowers in a field, wearing a long, flowing skirt, and carrying a wicker basket. Now I honestly don't know where I got that idea, but it was so romantic that I begged my mom to take me somewhere to live it out. We ended up picking dandelions in an overgrown parking lot! But that makes me think that I was a New Hampshire girl before I even lived there:)
*A Ballerina
Around the same time that I wanted to live a Little House on the Prairie fantasy, I also wanted to be a ballerina. I did take 3 semesters of ballet in college. Now, I'm going to teach it to my students after school once a week! I'm so excited:) I'm going to be rigorous and structured, as traditional ballet demands. And we're going to do a routine to the theme from Swan Lake.
*A Movie Director
I wanted to be a director when I was in middle school, because we didn't have cable and we watched so many old movies. Right now, I really don't want to enter into the whole "hollywood" thing;) So I'm going to check this thing off my list because I make a movie of my family, sharing stories and singing carols, every Christmas.
*An Oxford Scholar
I dreamt of studying at Oxford during high school...which was probably the result of watching sooooo much Masterpiece Theatre. This is one thing I really did! It was just as amazing as I thought it would be. Sometimes, when it's cool and rainy like it is today, I feel like I'm still there, with the enchantment of the history of the college giving me inspiration.
*An Author
My new goal is to write a children's book, like the kinds that was in love with when I was young. I loved "The Search for Delicious," "Redwall," "Johnny Tremain," and "A Tale of Two Cities." I wish I had the time to devote all my time to planning my plot and sketching out my characters. So this is the self that I'm currently working on...I guess we'll see!